A Shared Confession

Dear reader,

Can you relate to this confession?

"The truth.
I tried to morph it into something that I thought I would like better. One that, in my mind, I thought I wanted. I hoped for this improbable series of events only to put myself through an unnecessary roller coaster and I found out.... I didn't even know what the actual truth was.

Allow me to simplify.
I thought someone felt a certain way towards me, in fact I hoped for it. I even pursued it. However, each time I took one step forward in this manner I would get thrown three steps back further into confusion.
When I finally confronted the matter, putting all cards on the table quite bluntly I was rejected. I was shown that my assumptions were false (yes, yes... the word "assume", I know!). What was strange was that when this person told me, honestly and quite gently, how they felt - they care about me, just not in the same way I had thought - I realized that I enjoy our current relationship far more than anything I could have hoped for. It was stronger. I now value it more than any "day-dream".

Yet before this blunt conversation I wanted something different than what I had, and in turn I took what I did  have for granted and couldn't enjoy it because I had some silly "image" in mind. What I didn't see was that this image didn't even come close to comparing to the reality of the situation.
The truth was far more great!
To wrap this dead horse up: Sometimes when we think we want something we just can't see that what we have is what we really need.
I am lucky to have people in my life who care enough about me to be so honest with me and who look out for me.

   ~Sincerely,
             I am still discovering who I am"

We all hope for better things. But do we ever stop to think "what do I really need?".... Usually not. Mainly because we don't actually know what we need until it happens.

Everything happens for a reason.